Tuesday, November 04, 2008

5 truths...mixed with some knitting {nablopomo day 4}




~i suspect that bananas are giving me headaches...
has anyone else ran into this? since i started the
weight loss thing, i was eating 2 bananas a day
and started getting headaches every 2nd day...
i looked it up and it said there is a chemical in bananas
that is also in alcohol and when i drink {which is rarely}
i always get a major headache the next day...hmmmmm
{and i'm not dehydrated, everyone always says that,
but i'm not...or defensive either} heehee

~i secretly don't care that much about the weight loss...
i mean i do, but...i just have more important things
to do than spend hours worrying about whether or
not my exercise is going to counterbalance my calories...
i can't {and don't want to} live like that...i still want to
eat healthy/get exercise but i don't want to be
annoying myself {and family} by becoming fanatical.

~i am nervous about 9's upcoming camping trip with cubs...
i think because i project so much of myself onto my kids,
of what i was at that age...and i would never make it
through a two night winter camping trip, that i just
can't get past the fact that he might...he just might,
if only i could force myself to believe in him...
and let go a little...but it's hard...the letting go.

~i realize i need to get up earlier.

~i want so much to happen in my life...
that sometimes i feel maybe i am a little crazy...
other people seem content..why do i feel like
a whirlwind of planning, listing, pushing, learning,
wanting/needing to know more...
but at the same time...heh...i like me....
just like i am...

5 comments:

andie said...

So much good and thoughtfulness in this post. I imagine your new "corner" so lovely and inviting.
The "letting go"? Ugh. It is so hard. I struggle with it daily.

Content? Nahhh, that's for the boring and simple minded. Im on your team and love to keep pushing the envelope..you only live once as they say. Go crazy!

a.

leaca said...

sorry you are getting head aches. i have cluster migraines and i am in a cluster right now. not fun. i did not know that about bananas.

great photos.

daisies said...

those photos are BEAUTIFUL!! i hear you about the weight loss and the wanting things to happen in your life and liking you :) xo

Deirdre said...

My sister got headaches from bananas. Something about the potassium.

somethingcheeky said...

Lovely photos...I'm glad you found the source of those headaches!!
Wanting for for yourself is a GOOD thing...although I feel the same way about change...well put.