Wednesday, September 08, 2010

40. forty. 40. forty. 40. forty. 40. forty. 40. forty. 40

first day of school (high school for my new pink haired punk princess} and grade six for her sweet as sugar l'il brother...


so
this is it.

my 40th birthday.
september 8, 2010.
40 years old.

to be honest,
i'm not sure how i feel about it yet.

i think i have written and blogged and talked
and listed and facebooked and analyzed and thought
for so long about turning 40
that now that i am {40}
i am not sure how to feel...

remember i wrote that post a few weeks ago
about thinking life would be different at this stage of my life,
how i thought life would be easier...
and it's not.

well...i'm trying to switch my focus.
so we still owe money.
so the house still needs work.
what has happened? what can i say i have achieved?
what has made me happy?

16 years together with my husband {12 years married later this week}
2 amazingly interesting thoughtful funny eccentric children
we bought a house
my current job which i hope to stay in for a long time
my family, so supportive and funny and sweet
friends from elementary school that really, really know me
new friends made
a photography show
making a go at the photography business and having my 2nd
successful summer of weddings
going to writers workshops, putting myself out there
being interview for a full page in a local paper
getting my driver's license, driving long distances in winter!
surviving going off the road 3 times last winter
blogging for over 5 years now

i'm happy...i really am.
this is my year to focus on what is good in my life
as it becomes aware to me
that everything/one that is good in my life
may not always be here
and i need to grab the moments i can...right now...
and i need to live my life...right now.
no more waiting for the right moment.

i need to start diving in.

so happy 40th birthday to me.
i'm curious to see what the year will bring.

10 comments:

Wild Plum Cottage said...

Happy Birthday!!!

Char said...

sounds like you have accomplished a lot! here's to many, many, many, many more years of very wonderful things.

you have two adorable children!

Nat said...

Happy Birthday. Sounds like though it's different... it's been a good life.

I have 12 more days of 30, I feel like I should mark it somehow... just can't quite figure out how.

laundrygirl said...

Happy Birthday! Here's to the forties!
So much accomplished, so much to look forward to... You are still blossoming!

Relyn said...

Oh, sweet friend. Happy, happy birthday to you!!!

Jen @ tatertotsandjello.com said...

happy Birthday!!! Wonderful post - you have so much to be grateful for. I had a hard time turning forty but now think that my 40's are going to be the best decade yet!

xoxo
Jen

Vanessa said...

happy belated (sort of milestone) birthday!!!
mine's next june. i have that same feeling of, wow, i though things would be different. but, still, aren't we lucky that we like how things are turning out?!
you are definitely on the right track!
many happy returns!
Vx

Vanessa said...

happy belated (sort of milestone) birthday!!!
mine's next june. i have that same feeling of, wow, i though things would be different. but, still, aren't we lucky that we like how things are turning out?!
you are definitely on the right track!
many happy returns!
Vx

Christina said...

happy birthday!!!
XO

sandra said...

i hope you had a wonderful birthday. ♥