Wednesday, November 18, 2009

day seventeen...the night of the concert...


14's concert was tonight...
beatlesmania 2...
she did great...
i can't even explain how proud
of her i am...
how when i see her up on that stage
my heart expands
until my rib cage hurts
and sometimes,
my eyes get teary
so i force myself to focus on the camera instead...
telling myself i will take photos of her
that she can edit...
trying to distract myself
from the vast, uncontrollable-sometimes-a-
little-painful pride and love...
and i wonder where she came from...
this bundle of nerve and emotion...
of bravery and happenstance...
who can stand on that stage
under those lights
and belt out the beatles like she was born to do it.

where did that come from.


but this is also to explain
why i am late to the page
and running kind of scattery...
my thoughts feel like they
are all over the place today....

i have a ton of photos to edit...
emails to answer...
a wedding album to deliver
and wedding photos to upload...
laundry to put away...
kids to cuddle on the couch with
to watch the middle and modern family...
fimo snowmen to build...
a husband to snuggle with
{who is making chocolate chip cookies
for us as we speak}

so i'm scattery
and i'm late...
but you love me anyway,
right?

8 comments:

Relyn Lawson said...

Absolutely right!

And joining your in feeling so proud of your singer-girl. How excellent!

Relyn Lawson said...

And, oh. That image. That image! It's heaven. I want a dozen of them to send as postcards.

christina said...

Right!!
This post is making me beam with pride as a mama.
xo

Char said...

totally right. sounds like a very proud momma moment. and those are just treasures

margie said...

good for her!! a performing artist in your midst.

Susan Tuttle said...

you so beautifully describe the feeling of watching your daughter perform. i know exactly what you mean:)

daisies said...

i love those performances ... sigh .. that image is stunning!

Carrie said...

so your scatter-ed-ness is me at my best it seems... :)