Wednesday, September 06, 2006

pay no attention.

tonight
i feel
sad
and quiet.

alone
and
unheard.

i don't even know
why
except
that maybe
i am not listening
to myself.

impending birthday
looming.

wondering
what have i done?
what will i do?
who have i become?
where do i go
from here,
where is
here?

i ponder
and pause
and wonder...
quiet questions
pulsing
in my head.

pay no attention,
i'm sure it will pass...
a moment,
a thing,
a phase--a cycle.

i'll wait it out
with words.

8 comments:

Stuntmother said...

I'm listening too. And waiting quietly beside you. These are big questions and there are only small answers. Sometimes those are enough. Sometimes not.

Paying attention.

twitches said...

Birthdays suck. I'm just sayin'.

♥ joleen ♥ said...

i know what you mean.

saltwater princess said...

I might have been there before. You aren't alone. Big hugs to you, please never ever feel so alone.

The GurL said...

Just wanted to say how much I loved that poem. It really touched upon something deep within me...

la vie en rose said...

i've had that very same feeling before. even though i knew it would eventually pass it still sucked to be sitting in the middle of it. those damn life reflections will do it every time. but then if we didn't take the time for those damn life reflections we would never unfold into the women we are becoming.

acumamakiki said...

i have a birthday approaching myself (the 15th) it seems a lot of bloggers I like are September babies.
I know what you mean.

deirdre said...

The birthday blues are always so hard. Mine is coming up too and for only the second time in my life I am ambivilant about it. And yet, the melancholy creeps in. It will pass. In the meantime, happy birthday to you.