Thursday, May 11, 2006

where i have been hanging out on a poetry thursday..

i have changed my workspace around some.
i painted a bulletin board.
i painted a chair.

i am really happy now when i am working there.

this is something i wrote a long time ago
while still feeling some residual echoes of
what it was like to live with someone who
acted like they hated you
but whispered
that they loved you.

alcohol numbs the
noise raging in my brain
allows me to focus
on the subject in question
rather than the terrain.
you broke my heart-
you can't break me.
i am a monster of your creation but
you will never contain me
(nor will you hope to)
honest in your fear of my liberty
(truth belittles your insincere show of honesty)
yet i lack the conviction to ignore your hostility
seeing what your underlying
has done to me.

so tragic in my honesty,
i lack simplicity.

for more poetry thursday, go here.


paris parfait said...

Such a lovely, bittersweet poem. Thank you for sharing it.

la vie en rose said...

hop on pop!!! i love it!!!

great poem--you can feel the defiance...

Deb R said...

That's a scary-true glimpse of a relationship gone bad.

I love the photos of your workroom!

Heather said...

Love it!! the room, that chair, your poem. Hop on Pop is one of our nightly reads lately.

Letha Sandison said...

Is that hop on pop, outstanding!

I love your work space, what a great place to create!!

Wonderful poem, I am glad you are out of that now!

DayByDay4-2Day said...

I want a room all to me, too!

acumamakiki said...

Very nice work space ~ I'm trying to get that same thing for myself here and I've worked out a plan.

krista said...

Wow- I love that poem. I don't know necessarily if I agree with the commenter that said: "That's a scary-true glimpse of a relationship gone bad"

I think, its a raw true glimpse of a relationship that lacks simplicity.

That doesn't necessarily mean it's all bad.

I love this poem. Seriously.

gkgirl said...

(but not for my husband)
it was all bad

but happily...
it is all over

thanks for saying you liked it though
that means a lot to me to hear

liz elayne said...

this glimpse into who you were at that time is very powerful...especially knowing a bit of who you are now.
amazing. you knew your own strength then...even if it didn't always feel like it.

Letha Sandison said...

I hope you are busy creating in your beautiful space!!!

Shannon (Sentimental) said...

I am loving your space and I am super jealous! That is awesome. Great poem as well!

melanie komisarski said...

love the color in your workspace (I just painted my kitchen that color).

love the poem... very intense!