looking for clarity.

it is february

and i feel like i have been spinning my wheels

creatively

so far this year.

like i am doing things...vague things...

and yet

not feeling like i am getting anything

accomplished.

this feeling

coupled with reading this and this

and being a part of this but

unsure of how to define it for myself

so that i was doing more than just

saying i was a part of it

{i like things in measureable quanities...

it keeps me accountable}

led me to choose my own word for 2008.

focus.

last year felt like a year of change and growth

for me...i changed my field of employment

and creatively, i spent a lot of time dreaming,

planning, imagining, researching and taking notes.

but this year, i want to focus. i want to begin to do.

i reread what i wrote while journalling about this:

"maybe my word for this year should be FOCUS-

which feels right to me in so many ways-to apply

myself to what i want to do, to narrow down,

to concentrate....and then the whole photography

side of the term appeals to me also. if only i could

stop and focus, perhaps i could do some of those

things that i always have on my list- i need to

stop listing things and get to the action."

that said,

i have decided to make myself accountable

by having saturday be a check in day for me.

i chose saturday because it is the end of the week

and i want it to be a chance to take a tally of my

week, to take inventory of where i am and how

i have been spending my time.

it will become my "tally up" day.

i invite you join me, if you feel so inclined...

i know saturdays are not good for everyone,

and you can choose any day or any way to tally

that you like...but really, i need to do this for me.

i need to be able to go back and say

i have done this...i have tried that...

i have focused on my goals and followed through.

happy saturday!

edited to add: i am in good company with the word focus,
the-talented-and-oh-so-cute-daisies had chosen this word
also in her mondo beyondo manifesto...