Thursday, June 15, 2006

the truth of the matter.

i guess
the weather is not all
that is dragging heavily over me,
weighing me down,
making me sad,
listless,
quiet.

my brother
who has been living with us
on and off
(but mostly on)
for about ten years
is moving far away.

he leaves tomorrow.

all week
i have felt increasingly
silent...
void...
and i blamed it on pms
and i blamed it on rain

but the truth of the matter is
everytime i think
about him going,
about him being gone,
my face starts to twist toward tears...

so...
that's that.

13 comments:

Deb R said...

Well damn, of course that has you down. That's really hard. Sending good thoughts your way.

Funky Finds said...

Oh, I'm so sorry. It's so wonderful that you have a strong enough relationship with your brother to live with him AND feel sad that he's leaving. Just think of all the fun visits you'll have though! :)

krista said...

Sniff sniff.

Aw, It's nice to have a brother you love so much though- on the positive side.

woman wandering said...

I love it. :)

Colorsonmymind said...

A tear for you....so sorry you have to adjust to him leaving.

I too respond to the weather-you are not alone my dear-it is almost scary sometimes-how truly powerful the effect is.

Frankie said...

awww sweet friend! All my thoughts and love....thank you for sharing this beautiful poem. xoxo

bb said...

isn't great the way writing in petic form leaves so many spaces and silences around words that it gives the reader time to refelect on what is being said? well i think so!

bb said...

errm i don't know what *petic* is but i was talking about POETIC!

Stuntmother said...

I think it's so true and so hard how we walk around feeling something and that we take time to discover -- or to admit -- why we feel it. Facing up to your brother leaving sounds terribly hard -- and I send you virtual support and hugs and courage.

Bridget said...

PMS, rain and sadness all crashing down at once are hard. I'm sorry for the changes you are about to face and I'm sending you hugs to help you through. Bless you.

GoGo said...

I appreciated the way you expressed how much you will miss him and the change it's going to bring.

liz elayne said...

hmmm...this space in your heart where your brother lives, it will be there no matter how far away. still, i know, that doesn't make it any easier.
thinking of you...sending you peace and light and a big hug.

♥ joleen ♥ said...

:( *big hugs*